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P.S. I love you …

I have just watched ” P.S. I love you ”  and …..

I think its cruel

When you leave and ….


When u keep your wet toothbrush

Your scent ,

the warmth in my bed …and

                                               leave …                            and leave me the after taste …



The Death cycle or the untagged corpse …


Crawling down the habitual

stairs -he knew-

to the occupancy of

the coffin he had before


Wrapping the white cloth

reminiscence of of

a day , in heaven

he was unwrapped ashore


Next to the ancient scars

yet again, fresh

 wound in the old corpse

Full of blood and gore ..


Laid on his right side ..

Facing the Qibla ,

Curled like a question mark

In the ground ground floor ..


Looking up to a light

Shimmering above …

Wondering …

God ..  Not again



Death in the vicinity .. Professional death

Professional death 

Death was his Profession
He dipped them in the abyss
But made sure to pull them up to life
So gentle quiet and low key..anesthetist
Poison in one hand and antidote in the other…..

Nice and sweet..routine

In the custody of loneliness..
A spear was thrown may be thirty something years ago .. I don’t really know

Flashing lights, crushing heaves
Pounding and ringing.. pleas are in vain..
Agonising , crushing .. Life is fading ..
This is for real.. He knows what to do
Hundreds of times he did it for everyone drill or true ..but never to himself ..
Reaching for a phone , for a vein ..
For air ..
Could he CPR himself
Or did he roll in despair ..
Falling in the abyss.. so familiar
deep … and real…
Darkness prevail ..
I am gone..
the end is written and mission is done
The TV set is on ..

patients – still – been dipped and pulled
But for him , poor me , there was no one to attend ..

God bless your soul my friend
I wish I knew you a bit more ..


Death with dignity

Shut your door
Death in the vicinity

Lock it, bolt it ,and add
the steeliest chains and beams
No way to dodge it

So may be ..
Just may be ..
there is mercy
In death unseen, unattended
in the suddenness of
Death with dignity



Death in the vicinity .. A Housemaid


A housemaid
Five thousands mile from home
With a bubbly dream
She washes my dishes
With soft cloth
She dusts my life
With the taste of home she cooks for me

Homesick or whoever is sick at home
She bears the agony of love at bay
And yet .. She smile ..whenever she can
And dream of him at home in May ..

The news comes
Wrapped in a black day
“Your love is gone”
Stabbed to your death
One dream undone
A corpse of flesh earthed
and one above to be

My shirt is crisply ironed
My dishes are still done…
But the song in her heart
Is no more here..


Death in the vicinity .. Bare tree

Last week I was shaken by three deaths in two days . The deaths happened at different times one was months, the other was weeks and the last was days away, but the news came to me all together and the events surrounding all of these events were exceptionally tragic …

God bless them all …

Bare tree

The tree was short and bare
But for him,three little fruits,and her

Like anyone of you
July’s sun and crazy
Summer fun was due ..

The beach was wearing
A turquoise blue dress with golden seem
Tickling their feet
They built castles he swept them
and their dreams

The sea took their father away
July decided to keep him
Ramadan came then the fall will
And the short tree is still bare
But for three little fruits , and her ..


The ants and my half cashew ..

Ants I know are tiny and creepy

Yesterday,they invaded my life

Crawling next, over and under me

And this is a true horror story


I woke up on what felt

Iike noise .. but it was not..

I couldnt see until next to it I knelt

And here it was my poor half nut …


Ants are munching my half cashew

Fifty of these bustards or so

Flocks of hairy bare feet came through

Some walking and some  even flew


I am not so clear,

What triggered the lunacy in me

Frenzy outburst and I could hear

Screams and shouts of a deadly spree


Poor ants squashed by my giant feet

Frantically chasing them like my enemies

I must have crushed some black heads

Gutted some, and some managed to flee


Next morning ..


I looked down to where I left the scene

Unease swept me of my feet

fathers, mothers and aunts of ants ,

I must have flushed also a queen..


Flushed away dismembered ants and half cashew ,

I could see, with no more ants on nuts to chew,

So triumphant and full of glee ..

the only debris left was me …



The Melanchony of destiny ..

Why is destiny so mixed up and melancholic  ? !!
Why does it drop cards every time a shuffle is due ? !!
And why is the shuffle anyway ? !! …

Have you lost a card or two ? Do you feel the loss like me ? ..

Angry, I can’t tell for sure
Is it the driver, the seat or the road ?
Is it the signs that are never right?

Blaming all , but you .?  Do you feel the loss like me ? ..

I am going nowhere except here..
Here is never reaching there!!
And there is even more  distant and vague..

There was meant to share .. Do you feel the loss like me ? ..

I see the map and it is easy..
Was it the map ?  …
All the time … Was it the map ? …

Why do you set me a trap? .. Do you feel the loss like me ? ..

The speed is certainly an issue…
The roller coaster is aimlessly going to no where
Yet the excitement is all over the place

And for that, you have to pay, dear.. Do you feel the loss like me ? ..

I am dazed and drained…
And I hate the play of the giddy mind , the mirage
The sickness that come from standing .. Alone

And they call it motion sickness.. Do you feel the loss like me ?


Rainbow bruise

Rainbow bruise

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In a blink of an eye …


He told me what could happen in a blink of an eye

Surprised, though I could understand why..

A question hanging with so thin thread

Should certainly snap , fall and all

I pulled a breath and gave a long warm sigh

Now I  could fathom and pull an answer

All the things .. In blink of an eye..

All the things .. In a blink of an eye..

A frog catching a fly ..

Lightening or alike of a hunch ..

can I lie ..

Falling in love .. Fall for the charm once and twice

or get dumped , again, once and twice maybe thrice

I can skip a heart beat or god forbid die…

In the same blink of an eye ..

i can punch you  and start a fight ..

From in fact .. No way …

Could anything really happen in a blink

 Seeded in the dark shadow of the mind

Like your well having a drill or exercise..

Put him infront , to the back ,then to the side

In a whim you can die or let undie

He fell  like a log with a dull thud

When I gave it to him … Hard

Surely thing  can happen in a blink of an eye..